Observations from one month of blogging

Observations from one month of blogging

It’s been a month since I went live with this site, and I thought maybe I’d share some observations about the experience so far. This is my second blog–I had the Rockabilly Romp blog for about five years until I closed it about five years ago. I learned a lot of lessons with that blog, or at least I thought I did. I feel like I’m learning some of those same lessons all over again. The main thing is that this is kind of hard. I feel like I have a lot I could talk about, and I want to create a space where we talk about music and share our experiences. But my desire is to do it in a different way. I want to talk about what music means to us. What it has meant to us throughout our lives.

Oscar Wild
Maybe I need to learn to just sit back and relax like ol’ Oscar Wilde

I have a feeling that there are surface answers that address that. “Oh, music is my life!” or “I’m always listening to music. I couldn’t live without it!” We’ve all heard those kinds of statements before. I’m not trying to say that those comments, or comments like them, are not legitimate, but I know there must be something more.

How do we get to the real core of music in our lives? How do we discover and discuss what it really means to us? What it means to truly live a musical life or to be shaped and guided by music? I have a desire to get to the depths of music in our lives. That’s why I started this blog.

I feel like, so far, after one month…I am failing. It’s a real struggle. Finding the time in my day to write consistently for this blog hasn’t been easy. Thinking of interesting topics to write about is not easy. Keeping a positive attitude when readership stats are not exactly exploding is not easy.

And then there is what in blogging circles is commonly called impostor syndrome. That feeling that makes me question myself and ask, “Why would anyone want to listen to what I have to say about music? I’m not an industry insider. I’m not a wildly successful musician. All I have is a life-long love of, and involvement in, music. Big deal; everyone has that, right? So why would anyone care to read what I write?

But that’s not really why I feel like I’m failing. I know it takes time to build readership. I have to prove that this site is worth visiting. I get that, and I don’t expect something for nothing. I don’t expect readers to flock here in the first month and then keep coming back forever. And why should it matter anyway? I’m doing this because I love music and I want to share that love of music with others. If it’s one other or one million others, it’s all the same, right?

I feel like I’m failing because when I look back at the articles I’ve written so far, I’m not sure they get to the core of the discussion I want to have here. I don’t want to be just a news reporter. There’s nothing wrong with that, but you can find lots of sites that will report what interesting tidbit happened today in music news. People who are far more connected to the actual industry can do a far better job of reporting that stuff than I can. I want to get to a different depth–to strike a different chord. And that’s where I can’t help feeling like I’m falling a bit short. That’s where my energies have to refocus. I need to tap into the emotions of music. Not what happened today or what song got written today, but why it got written. And more importantly, how it makes us feel. That’s the elusive level I want to get to, and so I have to figure out the secret code that opens the door to that place.

But really, I don’t want to do it myself. I want this site to be a conduit which everyone can use to get to those deep-down places. I haven’t accomplished that so far. But, well, seriously; it’s only been a month, so what did I really expect? I was realistic going in. I know it takes time to gain trust and create a community. But even still, it’s easy to get discouraged when it’s not happening instantly. It’s all just a grand experiment on my part anyway. I don’t know whether there’s a model here for successfully tapping into what I’m chasing. And certainly just one month is not nearly enough time to make any kind of decision or assessment about the success or failure of this venture.

It makes sense to keep going. To keep trying and see what we can build here. But like I said, I feel like I’m learning some lessons all over again. Rockabilly Romp was no huge success, even after I put a lot of work into it. I don’t want to make the same mistakes I made there. I want to provide a real value to people. It’s very hard to determine whether I’m on the right track after just one month. So I’ll keep going. I enjoy writing and am happy to share with anyone who cares to read. I only hope that I can bring value to readers. A positive place on an increasingly dark Internet. Hopefully that’s what I can create here.

But more than that, I hope we can create a unique experience here. Something that helps each of us bore down into the depths of our hearts and memories and discover the core of our love for music. Then bring that love to the surface and put it out there for everyone else to share. It’s a big task I’ve laid out before myself. Who am I to think I’m the right guy to accomplish this? I fear that I’m not. But then, if not me, who? I don’t seen anyone getting at what I desire to get at. So I’m going to keep pushing for it. If I find it, hopefully we’ll all know, and hopefully we’ll all benefit from bringing what music means to us more to the center of our consciousness so that we can share those wonderful feelings with others around us. If I can accomplish that, then I will not have been a failure after all.

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2 Replies to “Observations from one month of blogging”

  1. I think you’re being way too hard on yourself, or expecting success to happen too quickly. I’ve been on the road you’re traveling, so I know how hard it is. Let me be honest: I’m enjoying your blog A LOT! I’ve really connected with some of the posts; i.e. Jack, and failing at guitar. Don’t give up!

    1. Wow, George, thank you so much. Your comment comes at a perfect time. This is exactly the kind of connection with other like-minded music lovers I’d hoped to make by starting this blog. If we can all support each other, we can share the love of music and, just maybe, make this world a little bit nicer place. I appreciate you being here with me!

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